Off

I'm off.  I don't want this to be a complaint session but I need to use this as an outlet.  I'm off and I don't know how to fix it.  I know something in my life needs to change and I'm just not sure where to go.  It's like this...I know what I need to do...I'm just afraid to do it.  I'm 2 hours away from heading to work.  My heart is racing, my hands are shaking, and I'm stressed.  My house is a mess, my child has watched way to much TV, and all I can do is think about my stress.  My work has over taken me.  It's become a detractor from every aspect of my life.  It's created misery and tears because I have allowed it to do that.  I know what my MOST important job is.  I know that God will provide for my family and that I don't need to worry when I have him.  How do I convince others what I know in my heart is correct. 

Tuesday Ramblings

Sydney says the funniest things.  I wanted to document a few so I don't forget:

• She is wearing her cowboy hat (see previous post) and is pointing at it telling the cat "see my hat is pretty huh."
• She was trying to get her water off the counter and kept saying "dangit dangit."  Gotta watch our mouths, even when we think we are being good.  You can never be sure what those little's will repeat. 
• When she was being watched by my parents, my mom corrected her on something.  Her response was, "Go to your room grandma."
• She is starting to go against bows...rebellion can set in at an early age I guess. 
• I corrected her one evening and her response was to correct her younger cousin.  The problem was, her younger cousin wasn't over. 

I'm sure I'll find more to add.  She is so stinkin funny and I'm sure lucky to have her.  Hope you all have a WONDERFUL Tuesday! 

But Mom, I need my cowboy hat

We were going to leave and Sydney said she had to have her cowboy hat, see the picture above.  She then proceeded to grab her belt and swing it around saying "I can't forget my rope!"  She's so funny!

Bloom Bouquets

This bloom bouquet is the perfect Holiday, shower, or birthday gift.  Head on over here to place your order.  In it, you will receive 4 flower clips, 2 bug clips, a crochet headband, and a decorative pot.  Custom color combos are available!

Lazy Sunday Thoughts

This week, well I should say this entire year has been challenging.  Where to go, what to do next...it's tough to decipher what is right some times.  I read something recently that I found inspiring.  It talked about being content.  I don't know about you but I struggle with being content.  I struggle with not wanting whats next.  Right now for instance, I'd love for my daughter to be potty trained.  Any one with me on that?  She's almost three and just doesn't want to do it.  I'd also love to be able to leave my job and work from home.  My job is extremely stressful and my heart, well my heart just isn't in it any more.  I'd also love for my little girl to be able to be a big sister.  Is all of this in the cards for us?  What does God really want for my family?  I think that letting go and asking that question is important.                                                                                                              
I want so badly to know whats next.  Well maybe, just maybe I'm not supposed to know that.  Maybe just maybe what's right now is important.  If I trust, the desires of my heart will be given to me.  Keeping that as the forefront of my thoughts will allow me to be the best I can be right now. 
My husband is gone doing school work all day.  Here is what My day will consist of:

My Husband did a re-vamp of my work area, how lucky am I?

Then there is the little girl that doesn't like to look at the camera...

Then there is the kitty that ruins our stuff but I'll be honest...I really do like him.

:Happy Sunday Everyone...Hope you can enjoy where your at!

My Wish

I had a wish in life.  It was to be a mom.  I remember on my first date with my husband, he asked what my goals were and I replied, "to be a mom."  I new I wanted to be home, make dinner, clean the house, and do all of those Mom things.  Well fast forward, we had a daughter and I went back to work.  I always hoped and prayed my chance to be a "Mom" would come and it did not.  I worked in a job I hated and found myself becoming more and more miserable.  When or daughter was under 1 years old, my husband became a statistic.  He lost his job.  My anger grew and at that point I began to disconnect.

The decision was made for him to go back to school and I continue to work.  The past few years my anger grew and I began to feel trapped.  After all, my wish was so simple.  I just wanted to be a mom.  This is a struggle for me.  I feel like I've been let down by God.  I feel like my wish is so simple.  What if anything can I do to make this happen. 

I know right now there is one thing I can do.  That is be Thankful.

Today I make a new wish.  I will wish for a Thankful heart. 

New Bows!

This is a bow I made for this weeks auction over at Happy Hairbows on Facebook.  I was thinking about my wedding which had the colors pink and black and just went from there.  What do you think?