Tuesday, September 27, 2011

My Wish

I had a wish in life.  It was to be a mom.  I remember on my first date with my husband, he asked what my goals were and I replied, "to be a mom."  I new I wanted to be home, make dinner, clean the house, and do all of those Mom things.  Well fast forward, we had a daughter and I went back to work.  I always hoped and prayed my chance to be a "Mom" would come and it did not.  I worked in a job I hated and found myself becoming more and more miserable.  When or daughter was under 1 years old, my husband became a statistic.  He lost his job.  My anger grew and at that point I began to disconnect.

The decision was made for him to go back to school and I continue to work.  The past few years my anger grew and I began to feel trapped.  After all, my wish was so simple.  I just wanted to be a mom.  This is a struggle for me.  I feel like I've been let down by God.  I feel like my wish is so simple.  What if anything can I do to make this happen. 

I know right now there is one thing I can do.  That is be Thankful.

Today I make a new wish.  I will wish for a Thankful heart.